Heavy toll strikes at rugby's soul
By Owen Slot
(From the Daily Telegraph, 7
October 2001)
SEAN LUGANO
played his last game of rugby on Sept 8. He was a "feisty, charismatic
scrum-half, a great leader," says Mike Tolkin, the coach of his club, the New
York Athletic Club, "and one of the key players that got us last year to
the national championship final." In that last game, against their oldest rivals,
the New York Rugby Club, "Sean was being belted all around the park but he
just hung in there, as he always would".
After the
game, the NYAC retired as ever to Rathbone's, the bar in uptown Manhattan that
Lugano
ran with his
brother, John, and where Lugano would enjoy his role as host, "always with
a big smile". And it is there that the NYAC - those who survived Sept 11 -
have been meeting regularly ever since.
Lugano was
one of three members of the club, including the president, who were lost to the
New York terrorist attack. E-mails and letters of condolence have been arriving
in numbers from around the world ever since - from Henley RFC and Blackrock
College, to name just two, says Tolkin - an example of the rugby community spreading
its international tentacles.
Other
examples regularly surfaced before any of this happened. Mark Ludvigsen, the
president and stalwart second-row forward, received about a dozen e-mails a week
from around the globe, from players coming to work in New York and asking to
join. It was this way that they recruited two former Oxford University captains.
"Mark
was a great personality, the public face of the club," says Tolkin. No one
has even begun to think about how to fill the space that he, too, has left behind.
The third
NYAC player to die was Brent Woodall. "One of the best athletes we ever
had," says Tolkin. Woodall was a tight-end American footballer of note, he
came close to playing major league baseball, he was 6ft 4in "and he could
really move". And the wife he leaves behind is pregnant with their first
child.
"They
were all the same type of guys," says Tolkin. "The words at the
memorials are almost the same: all great, outgoing, friendly amazing people.
They really were, it's not just words."
Numerically,
the NYAC was thus the rugby club worst hit on Sept 11, though the terrorist
attacks claimed, in total, 16 talented American rugby players. Their names and
achievements in the game are listed in the current edition of Rugby, the
American magazine that is a bible to the fledgling sport.
When one of
their widows was contacted by the magazine, she responded that her husband
would be delighted to have made it into its pages. Other New York rugby players
are proudly acquainted with the story that emanated from the plane which
crashed in Pennsylvania, that the posse that attempted to overpower the
terrorists included two players from the west coast. [Articles here and here.
- Wes]
Despite
being such a small sport in the United States, it is perhaps not surprising
that rugby took such a toll. American rugby players tend to be of the well-schooled
middle class, the sort who would graduate naturally into the finance industry.
Yet this, by
no means, is reflected in the trappings of their sport. "These rugby clubs
are based in bars, they don't have clubhouses," says Ed Hagerty, editor of
Rugby. "The players change in their cars on the side of pitches.
It's not easy or convenient to play rugby here and that makes it somewhat
exotic. Once you've played it here, there's a connection."
And those
connections have proved strong. A proliferation of memorial services have focused
the
sadness of
the last four weeks, "but from 10 days after it all happened," says
Tolkin, "everyone - the NYAC boys - were together every night and that
made it a lot easier."
Tolkin,
himself, has had a considerable amount of grief to deal with. Besides coaching
NYAC, he has been coaching Xavier High School for the 11 years since he started
there as a teacher. Xavier lost 12 alumni in the World Trade Centre and Lugano
was one of three who had played on Tolkin's team. "It feels strange,"
says Tolkin, "I coached Sean in the first game he ever played and also in
his last."
The day
dawned yesterday when NYAC would play for the first time without him. Their
return to the game had been taken in careful steps, two weeks were completely missed
and three games cancelled before a meeting was held to decide the way ahead.
"It was unanimous," says
Tolkin.
"Everyone wanted to get back. There's no use just sitting around, you'd
just wallow deeper and deeper."
So they
started in Central Park with a short, light game of touch rugby and built up
gradually until
yesterday, a
game on their home ground against Boston Irish. Some bagpipes played before
kick-off; on the backs of their shirts, NYAC had stitched the names of their
late team-mates alongside a mini Stars and Stripes. And no one was in any doubt
as to where they'd be drinking afterwards.
There is,
without doubt, a considerable amount of therapy to be had from the company of
teammates and clearing and cleansing the mind on the field of play. Yet not
everyone has yet managed to lace up their boots again.
Last
Wednesday, Finbar Carrig, 26, also from Xavier, rejoined his New York Rugby
Club teammates at training for the first time. In the three weeks after Sept
11, he explained, he had been to seven memorial services and missed others when
they had clashed.
"But I
knew I had to get down here," he said, nodding at the pitch (a football
pitch) under floodlights. "I knew I had to do something with myself and
here, at least, gets you away from it all for a couple of hours."
With Carrig
present, pretty much all the club were now accounted for, bar Kevin Burke -
"the life and soul" as his team-mates described him, "always
wants to let everyone know that he's there" - whose brother, Matt, was
another of the dead. No one was sure exactly when they would see Kevin in a
rugby context again, though they would certainly be seeing him at the bar of
the Town Crier later that night.
Kevin had
given a eulogy at his brother's memorial four days previously and was in place
at the Town Crier because the barman, another rugby man, had declared that that
night's taking would be going towards a fund set up in Matt's name.
But rugby
was a challenge that he suspected might still be beyond him. "I know I
should go, but I'm not ready to yet," he explained. "I mean, I was
still having trouble shaving and brushing my teeth last week." One day, if
he woke up sober in the morning, he said he felt he might go, but there haven't
apparently been many sober mornings.
"I
still don't think I've come anywhere near to feeling the depth of the impact
yet," he said. And in
that, it
seemed, he was speaking for everyone.